AndThenYouSaid

So I've started adding more pieces again. Which I think is good. Here's to a new leaf.

Yes, I am procrastinating. This is why I hate Sunday afternoons. Because I suddenly realize how much I have to do, and how much I dont want to do it. I also feel like I'm burning in my own skull. I just can't get these thoughts out of my head... Things people have said, things I cant change, and yet I find myself tearing through the words, trying to convince myself its not true. I'm not like that. I'm not how they say I am. And I apologize and apologize just to end the conflict..because if I dont, then no one will. And I still think I'm at least quasi right, so it bothers me when I have to grovel, and betray what I truly feel, just to end a

It really kinda sucks when you have people over and you want nothing to do with them. 'Specially when the party is for you. And the people are your family. Because you're celebrating and yay we're all happy! But you really just want to curl up in a little ball, reminisce quietly, and maybe get started on that homework they're preventing you from doing. I just... I cant deal with them right now. I just cant do it. -Rafe